For the past month or so with all the recent events of my loosing person after person has left me feeling lost and confused looking for an answer wondering if it could possibly be me , what’s wrong with me . Prior to the event I prayed and asked God to move my life in the right path to better me as a better person for me and on to a better life . Constantly praying for answer a sign something , I felt like maybe he just wasn’t hearing me . I came so far as a person but I could feel myself little by little slipping back into my old ways . My boyfriend left , what I considered a close friend fell off and we are no longer close , I think constantly what did I do was I not good enough for him ? Was she only around take what I had to offer ? Scrolling down my Facebook recently the sign that I had been begging and pleading for had finally been given to me:
At that very moment everything started to make a little sense. He’s given me exactly what I have been asking for , a better me . Never did I think that it would start by loosing one of the most important people to me . The whole feeling of being lost , missing who I felt I couldn’t live without , going day to day just wishing that I could have some type of peace of mind to relax . Maybe I had become to dependent on my situation and God decided to mix it up for me so that I can make it on my own and believe in myself that I can make it . Many nights I lay in my bed restless trying to solve the equation, why was everything happening to me , and within a matter of time he gave me my answer . Adjusting and accepting the changes God has made in my life have been challenging, but I’m not questioning his motives, everything he does is for a reason , and if things are meant to be then they will be . Patience is virtue, you learn to wait for things that you want , so when the time comes when finally get what you’ve been asking for you can appreciate what you have . All I can do now is just sit back , watch my life unfold, and pray that in the end that I’m where I want to be .